Sorry I haven't been around since Friday but I have not had internet since then. I am now back online and so thankful. It has been a hard 4 days that I am so glad are behind me now.
On Friday Tyrique had a melt down and it was pretty bad. Dewayne and I have been fighting non-stop pretty much since then. The boys are stressed out just like we are stressed out. It is hard on them to go through this and to also have to be around to hear the anger and bitterness that has taken over our home.
The boys act out and I just want to stay in bed and act like none of this is happening.
Dewayne took Kobe on Saturday and Sunday and was gone from the house pretty much the whole weekend. Since I didn't have to be running around after my lil man I just stayed in bed most of the weekend (I read 4 books). Markus played outside and Tyrique was in the house playing video games most of the weekend.
On Sunday I decided it was time to get out of the funk and took Tyrique to the store to buy him some jeans that he wanted (skinny jeans). After we came back from the store I took the boys out for a long walk and then we ended up at a playground right by the house. We walked past endless dogs, that was hard for all of us.
After our walk we came home and played Monopoly until it was time for bed. The boys loved having a fun night like that and I have to say it made me feel better too.
We have 3 weeks left until we leave to go to Iceland and I haven't done anything to prepare for the move. I need to start packing our stuff and getting ready but I just don't have the umph to do it. I am just pushing all of this stuff to the side and ignoring what has to be done. I really need to get boxes and start the packing process all over again! Didn't I just do this?? I hate moving and I hate the fact that I can't take everything with me! I am leaving most of our stuff behind because it is very expensive to ship it to Iceland. Basically we are starting all over again!
Okay, this post has been pretty random and I'm sorry but my brain is so scattered that I can't help it! I know I'm sorry that this post is so whiny and blah but it is just how I am feeling at the moment!