Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I'm here

Sorry I haven't been around since Friday but I have not had internet since then. I am now back online and so thankful. It has been a hard 4 days that I am so glad are behind me now.

On Friday Tyrique had a melt down and it was pretty bad. Dewayne and I have been fighting non-stop pretty much since then. The boys are stressed out just like we are stressed out. It is hard on them to go through this and to also have to be around to hear the anger and bitterness that has taken over our home.

The boys act out and I just want to stay in bed and act like none of this is happening.

Dewayne took Kobe on Saturday and Sunday and was gone from the house pretty much the whole weekend. Since I didn't have to be running around after my lil man I just stayed in bed most of the weekend (I read 4 books). Markus played outside and Tyrique was in the house playing video games most of the weekend.

On Sunday I decided it was time to get out of the funk and took Tyrique to the store to buy him some jeans that he wanted (skinny jeans). After we came back from the store I took the boys out for a long walk and then we ended up at a playground right by the house. We walked past endless dogs, that was hard for all of us.

After our walk we came home and played Monopoly until it was time for bed. The boys loved having a fun night like that and I have to say it made me feel better too.

We have 3 weeks left until we leave to go to Iceland and I haven't done anything to prepare for the move. I need to start packing our stuff and getting ready but I just don't have the umph to do it. I am just pushing all of this stuff to the side and ignoring what has to be done. I really need to get boxes and start the packing process all over again! Didn't I just do this?? I hate moving and I hate the fact that I can't take everything with me! I am leaving most of our stuff behind because it is very expensive to ship it to Iceland. Basically we are starting all over again!

Okay, this post has been pretty random and I'm sorry but my brain is so scattered that I can't help it! I know I'm sorry that this post is so whiny and blah but it is just how I am feeling at the moment!


Pennie said...

My thoughts have been, are and will be with you, Helga. I imagine it's been tough on everyone. I keep wondering what's going on over there (I know - none of my business, but I can't help it! I'm honest...) ;)

Email me if you feel like chatting. I'm off to the dr's in a minute for the spinal tap, but if I'm in any condition to look at my computer later, I will.

Prayers, hugs and lots of love.

Jamie H said...

Sorry about all your stress lately. Moving is hard, moving to another country is even harder! Thinking of you...

Erin said...

I hope it gets less stressful for you. Moving is hard enough but to go through everything else makes it worse. My thoughts are with you. Hang in there.

3LittleMonkeys said...

My thoughts are with you and your family Helga.

Murdock's mama said...

Hang in there hun! Did you receive my package yet?

Krajcimama said...

Your whining and being bummed out are totally understandable! Whine away!

Thinking of you - hang in there...give your boys lots and lots of snuggles and love!

Dagbok Huldar said...

Helga min,
Eins og vinkona min segir alltaf vid mig " it too shall pass"...eg reyni ad minna mig a thad thegar pirringurinn og endalaus pointless rifrildi gerast. Skilnadur er erfidur og tilfinningarnar geta tekid voldin.
Eg aetla ad hringja i thig.
Tala vid thig fljotlega.

Sonora said...

I am so sorry! It is so hard to go through something like that and even worse when there are kids involved. I hope you all are doing ok. I am thinking of you!

Maura said...

Helga I am so sorry you are going through this. It must be so stressful right now. And if you need to vent what better way to do it then here. I am sure when it starts to get closer to the big move you will get some renewed motivation.

CC said...

Hi Helga,
I'm visiting via Friday Follow... and wanted to tell you how much I liked your blog. I've been through a divorce,so I know what you're going through. My sons were 8 and 11 at the time,and it was so hard on them. I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say here..other than offering my support and good wishes. You will get though this and believe me when I tell you, when it's over and a bit of time has passed,you will be amazed at how strong you are and how well you have coped. You will overcome everything..I know you will.
All my good wishes are with you and your sons...
I am your newest follower...if nothing else,I can offer encouragement. I hope you come visit me...I know I'll be back to visit you..