Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Aahh Naptime...

For a daycare provider Naptime is like Heaven on Earth!!!  I am so busy from 6 am until about 8 pm that Naptime seems to be the only time I get to relax and atleast sit down at the computer to check my e-mail and eat lunch.  I mopped the floor as the kids were coloring this morning and have everything else spotless after lunch and I am just really enjoying quite time.  I turn the TV off and make sure that the house is nice and peaceful :-)  
  Ok so let me write about my last week cause it has been kinda nuts...So last week my baby got really sick.  He woke up from his nap on Wednesday and he had a fever of 102.2 and he had a rash all over his body.  So after my husband came home from work we took him to the ER to make sure he was ok.  Well after about 3 hours in the ER (they were super busy) we found out that the baby had a viral infection and the dr gave us motrin to give him every six hours.  The dr also said that the rash was caused by the fever and as soon as the fever would go away the rash would too.  Well the rash is just now going away (one week later) and the baby is getting sick with a cold WTF???  I hope the cold doesn't last long though. 
  Well I have not worked out since Monday of last week but I will start again.  I am determined to loose some weight and so I will start the gym again if it is the last thing I do...damnit :-)
  Over Memorial weekend we went swimming on Sunday and Monday and BBQed with friends and had a really good time.  I got a really nice tan going ;0) that is always a good thing.  
  So let me tell you all what happened to me last night...I didn't think I would make it through the night I was so scared.  My husbands football team practices on Tuesday at 5 and it is about an hour away from home.  So he leaves and then at around 8 pm last night I was in the bath tub and got a really bad feeling so I called him to make sure he was alright and got no answer!  That's normal though cause he can not answer the phone while he is practising so I did not think anything of if and he ended up calling me back within 10 min and he said that they were just finishing up and then he would be home.  So about 20 min after talking to him he calls me again and tells me that he is going to stop by his friends house since he is in the neighborhood anyway and told me he would not be long.  I said that was fine but I was really tired and was going to go to bed early so I would not be awake when he came home.  Then I could not fall asleep and at about 10 pm called him to see where he was at.  He said he was just leaving his friends house and would see me in an hour...ok I am gonna be sleeping for sure and I was kinda irratated with him that he had stayed so long only cause it was a weeknight and he had to get up early this morning and I worry so much when he is not there before I go to sleep.  So I was real short with him on the phone and hung up without telling him I loved him (I never do that).  Well I fell asleep and still had the bad feeling in the pit of my stomach and then I started having nightmares.  I woke up to the baby at about 12:10 am and my husband was not laying beside me in the bed!!!  So I look outside and see that his car is not out there...OMG where could he be???  I tried to call his cell phone and it went straight to voicemail.  I started freaking out and went downstairs and called a friend of mine and asked her what I should do.  I ended up calling the state police and every local police department for every city looking to see if anyone had seen him or if he had been arrested or in an accident, whatever it may be that happened.  Well no one knew anything so I started calling all the hospitals and they didn't have him either so by this poing I was close to having a panick attack.  Well when I was getting ready to loose it at about 1:30 in the morning he pulls up!!!  I ran to the door and when he came in I almost collapsed and started crying uncontrolably.  My husband was shocked to see that I was freaking out and tried to hug me and I just started hitting him and sobbing that I thought he was dead in a ditch somewhere.  Well after I finally calmed down he told me that when he was getting ready to leave his friends house it started raining really hard so he decided to wait it out.  Well he told me that he did not call because he thought I was sleeping and did not want to wake me.  I told him he should have called me anyway and then he said that his cell was dead by the time he left his friends house.  I was so mad but yet so relieved that he was safe and sound.  I guess something like that puts it all into perspective for you!!!  I know that I love my husband more than life it self and I don't know what I would do without him and I don't even want to imagine it.  
  So today I am going to bed by 8 pm because I was to freaked out to sleep last night.  Everytime I started to drift off I would have a nightmare.  I was really scared and could not seem to shake it.  So I am going on about 1 hours worth of sleep today and to say the least I am exhausted.  Ok well off to enjoy the last little bit of nap time.   

Thursday, May 22, 2008

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About me

When I was little my dream was to grow up and become a lawyer.  I was going to buy a big house, have lots of kids, a husband who looked like Ken (Barbie's Ken), have a ton of dogs and allow my sister to live with me because I couldn't imagine living without her.  

Reality check.....

I am now grown even though I still feel like a kid at times and I am not a lawyer, have 3 kids, a soon to be ex-husband who turned out not to look anything like Ken, had to get rid of my beautiful dog because of my divorce and am not living with my sister (we have lived together quite a bit though since we moved out of our parents house).  

I am currently living in Iceland trying to find myself after a failed marriage and trying to figure out what I want to do with my life.  My step dad used to always ask me when I was younger where I saw myself in 5 years.  This question is killing me right now because I don't know where I see myself in 5 years and I can promise you that 5 years ago I did not see myself here!!!

Now it is time to find new dreams and goals and figure out where I want to be in 2015.  Follow along on my journey through life.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Working out...

Okay so this week was supposed to be my first week of going to the gym 5 days...well I didn't make it yesterday!!!  Damn it I am so mad at myself, there was a really bad storm yesterday that started at about 3:30 in the afternoon and lasted until sometime after 5:30 and it was so bad that I decided not to go out in it.  I swear that as soon as I made the decision the weather cleared up :-0  I have been working out since I started doing daycare but I haven't been doing it seriously enough.  I may go 3 times a week but I have not really been pushing myself very hard....Now I want to go 5 days a week and push myself to the max and loose some weight.  I am 176 lbs right now and my goal is to get to 150 lbs.  I was 168 lbs 3 weeks after the baby was born and then over the last 7 months I have gained the extra 8 lbs and I really need to get rid of this extra weight.  It is scary to think that after my first child I was 115 lbs soaking wet and now I am 60 lbs heavier.  It is ok though I would never want to get back to 115 lbs cause I was way to skinny then.  I think I would look good at about 140 lbs.  My dream has been to get to 150 lbs for so long but I want to just celebrate every pound as I loose it instead of making my dream a little bit too hard to reach.  

How fun is it to read about what every woman complains about....loosing weight!!!  I am a very confident person and even at the weight I am at now I am perfectly happy.  I started going to the gym originally because I needed to get some frustration out of my system.  I have alot of frustration in me that ends in fights between me and my husband if I don't get it out in some other way.  I just decided the other day that I needed to be going to the gym to loose weight too not just to get the frustration out.  I am going to start pushing myself really hard now and get my ass in shape.  I just want my baby to look at me and be like damn...that's my wife  :-) I know he loves me now just the way I am because I looked just like this when he met me but I want to look better than I did when we met  :-)  I am such a dork, I know :0)  

Ok enough about working out and weight loss...I will write about it all as I go but for now I am going to clean up since all the daycare kids are sleeping.  Then after I am done I will sit my happy go lucky self down and have a little break.  This day has been crazy and this is the first time I sit down now writing this blog. 

Tuesday, May 20, 2008


So let me start by telling the world a little bit about myself....

My name is Helga and I am 27 years old, born in Reykjavik Iceland.  I moved state side when I was 10 years old and have been living back and forth between Iceland and the states since.  I now live in Virginia and I love it here.  I am very head strong, independent, loving, motivated, I am a numbers person, I can be a bitch at times but I can't help it :0)  I love to read, the computer (who doesn't?), swimming, scrapbooking, accounting, numbers, and of course my family.  I worked as an insurance agent until my youngest son was 5 months old and then had to quit because he did not handle daycare very well so now I am a daycare provider and I love it.  I enjoy being here with my little baby and I love being here when the big boys come home from school.  I have a great bunch of kids that I watch and I have to say that I am loving what I am doing right now.  Of course some days are better than others.  I go to the gym at night after all the daycare kids leave for the day and try to work out for about an hour.  I was really good at it when I first started doing daycare but the last three weeks have been a little bit lazy but as of yesterday (Monday) I am going to go 5 days a week for an hour each day.  I just want to loose a little bit of weight and feel good.  I lost all my baby weight from having my youngest son when he was 3 weeks old but I would just love to loose a little bit more.  

On to the family....

I have four sons...they are Tyrique 11, Markus 8, Jalen 3.5, and Kobe 8 months old.  The boys are great, Tyrique is going to be a great football player one day.  He loves to be outside playing football, skateboarding, riding his bike or just playing with friends.  Markus is my GENIUS....he has an extremely high IQ and I think he is going to be some kind of computer or video game guru one day.  He loves to play video games and also loves to play with his wrestling guys.  Jalen very loving, he is such a Mammas boy.  He loves Spiderman, Dora, Diego and Superman.  He loves to play at the park and ride his bike.  Now my little man Kobe, he just learned how to crawl and he is all over the house.  He has 8 teeth and says Mamma, Dada, Amma (which means Grandma in Icelandic) and we think he is trying to say his brothers names too but we are not sure.  The Baby is a Mammas and Daddys boy but he does not like to be left with anyone else.  He was in daycare for about a month and then we had to give up because he just cried all day for the poor woman.  He is the sweetest little boy he just does not like to be away from us.

Now on to my wonderful husband Dewayne...

He is younger than I am, he is 25 (almost 26) and he is active duty Navy.  He has been in for 2.5 years and has been stationed here in Va the whole time except for he was deployed to Afghanistan last year for about 7 months.  The deployment was horrible and it was really hard on all of us but we are so glad that he is back home and we hope he never goes away like that again.  My husband is thinking about re-enlisting in the Navy for another 4 years and that means that we would be going overseas for the next 4 years of his carreer.  That would be great if we would get Europe so that I could be close to my family since they are all there.  I guess we will see where the Navy takes us if we stay in.  Okay so back to my husband, he went to College at MO and played football while he was there and then injured himself his senior year and could not play anymore.  He is now all better and plays semi pro football here in VA and loves it.  I am so proud of him, he is a great Man, a wonderful husband and father and I don't know where I would be without him.  

Ok now that I have written about myself and my family I am going to tell you what I want to blog about later on...

I want to blog about my weight loss...set some goals for myself and also hopefully this will be encouraging.  I want to blog about the things in life that make me happy and the things in life that make me mad or sad.  My everyday life and my hopes and dreams.  I love to write so hopefully I will be able to do this and wont get writers block.  It has always been a dream of mine to write a book but I can never get past a few pages cause I always just go blank and it drives me crazy.  Okay enough for now.  I need to take out some meat for dinner and start my laundry.  It is raining so hard today, just had to throw that in there.  Have a great day :-)