For Sale

When planning my trip to Iceland I had decided that I was going to send a pallet full of boxes. At first I wanted to send all of our stuff but then I found out that that would cost me about $5000!!! I quickly decided that wasn't happening! The pallet, I thought would cost me about $500-600...that was do-able.

This morning I called to set up the pallet and the guy told me it would cost me $1200 to send the pallet from Virginia Beach. I have to get the boxes to VA Beach and they will send the pallet from there. There is no way I can afford to send my stuff to Iceland if it is going to cost me a that much money. Besides that, I can't go to VA Beach with the boxes before leaving for Iceland.

Now I am thinking about just selling my stuff. I don't know exactly how I am going to go about this but I figure it can be done. Dewayne is going to keep the couch, the bedroom set and kitchen table and chairs. I am going to sell the boys' beds and dressers. I also have a bunch of nice kitchen stuff that I am going to sell....kitchen aid, food processor, etc.

I have some other things that I would like to sell too but I am not sure exactly how to go about selling all these things. What do you think is the best way to go to sell these things??? Craigslist?? Garage sale??

I just want to get the most out of these things and not get ripped off!!!

If you have any ideas please let me know :o)

I'm here

Sorry I haven't been around since Friday but I have not had internet since then. I am now back online and so thankful. It has been a hard 4 days that I am so glad are behind me now.

On Friday Tyrique had a melt down and it was pretty bad. Dewayne and I have been fighting non-stop pretty much since then. The boys are stressed out just like we are stressed out. It is hard on them to go through this and to also have to be around to hear the anger and bitterness that has taken over our home.

The boys act out and I just want to stay in bed and act like none of this is happening.

Dewayne took Kobe on Saturday and Sunday and was gone from the house pretty much the whole weekend. Since I didn't have to be running around after my lil man I just stayed in bed most of the weekend (I read 4 books). Markus played outside and Tyrique was in the house playing video games most of the weekend.

On Sunday I decided it was time to get out of the funk and took Tyrique to the store to buy him some jeans that he wanted (skinny jeans). After we came back from the store I took the boys out for a long walk and then we ended up at a playground right by the house. We walked past endless dogs, that was hard for all of us.

After our walk we came home and played Monopoly until it was time for bed. The boys loved having a fun night like that and I have to say it made me feel better too.

We have 3 weeks left until we leave to go to Iceland and I haven't done anything to prepare for the move. I need to start packing our stuff and getting ready but I just don't have the umph to do it. I am just pushing all of this stuff to the side and ignoring what has to be done. I really need to get boxes and start the packing process all over again! Didn't I just do this?? I hate moving and I hate the fact that I can't take everything with me! I am leaving most of our stuff behind because it is very expensive to ship it to Iceland. Basically we are starting all over again!

Okay, this post has been pretty random and I'm sorry but my brain is so scattered that I can't help it! I know I'm sorry that this post is so whiny and blah but it is just how I am feeling at the moment!

Five Question Friday

It is 11 something at night and I am doing 5QF early since Mama M now posts the questions the night before...I think I like that :o)

If you want to play along just click on the button above.

Here are this weeks questions....

1. Did you pass your driver's test on the first try?

Ummmm, NO!!! I passed it on the third try...yeah you read that right, 3rd try!!! You see, my parents had this mini van that I learned to drive and the reverse didn't work too well so when I went to take my test the first two times I had my friends car and she had a huge spoiler and I was too afraid to back up properly when parallel parking because I couldn't see past the spoiler that the mean man failed me!!!

The third time I had bought my own car and I passed with flying colors!

2. What is your most embarrassing moment?

I dunno! Maybe telling you all that it took me three tries to pass my driving test after having had a learners permit for over a year!! Yeah, over a year!!

Hey look what I just accidentally learned on my keyboard

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Yup, it's upside down exclamation marks!!! I love them!

Maybe this was kinda an embarrassing moment! I'm kind of a dork and I don't know if you have gotten that yet reading my blog :o)

3. What TV show would you like to be on- Oprah, Biggest Loser, or What Not to Wear?

BIGGEST LOSER!!!! I have thought about gaining weight just to go on the show!!! Okay, I wouldn't gain the weight just to get on the show but, I WANT TO GO ON THE SHOW!!!

They had try outs here in Chicago a few weeks ago and I really wanted to go...I just don't think they would take an average overweight person anymore after they have had such big contestants. Not that there is anything wrong with big contestants :o)

4. Would you ever get plastic surgery and what kind?

Yep!! Are you kidding me...if I had the money I would have a lot of work done. I would have a boob job. I just want a fill, having kids kinda deflated my balloons.

I would have a tummy tuck, having kids kinda made my stomach flabby!

I would have butt implants, not having a butt sucks!!! No, my having kids had nothing to do with my booty! I have never had one and have always wanted a bubble butt :o)

5. What are your favorite jeans to wear?

I have a few favorites. I used to love Mudd when I was younger and still do but at the moment I have none. I like Vigoss and I like South Pole jeans too.

Well this sure was fun. How bout you go on and play along too :o)

Friday Follow

Welcome everyone from Friday Follow. Please leave me a comment if you are a new follower so I can stop over at your blog and follow you back.

This week there is a CASH giveaway going on through Friday Follow...let's hope I win :o)

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So here's the thing

I am moving to Iceland, not the North Pole and I will be taking my wonderful MAC with me :o) and I will be doing lots and lots of blogging from there LOL :o)

I really appreciate your comments and all the love. support and prayers. This is hard and it is going to get harder but I am going to try to be really positive about the whole divorce thing. This is my blog and I am going to write my feelings. This is not going to become a pity party blog though!! I am not that kinda girl :o)

I love this blog! I feel like I have made a lot of friends through this blog and I want to continue my friendships with you all...I am divorcing Dewayne.....NOT THE BLOG LOL!!!

I just wanted to put that out there since a lot of you asked if I am going to continue blogging.

Blogging is a huge part of my life...I think about it when I am away from it and I dream about it at night (I know....I'm a dork, I can't help it though).

My life is a little bit crazy right now....I had to give up my doggy, I'm getting a divorce and I am moving to a different country!!

I need to blog! I need to be able to get it all off my chest and I need to be able to think about something other than what is going on here. I want to be able to loose myself in reading your blogs and looking at your pictures.

Besides, aren't you kinda interested in reading about my move to Iceland? Seeing pictures of my home there?? Hearing about my new adventures as a Single Mamma?

I thought so :o)

So I will be here writing my blog and reading yours and I hope you will be doing the same....well, you writing your blog and reading mine LOL.

The Truth

I want to start out by saying that I am always honest on this blog. Everything that I say/write is the truth. Sometimes I just don't tell the whole truth, just parts of it. I am not a famous blogger, I never took an oath to write everything that happens in my life on this blog. I started this blog for me. I didn't really let anyone know that I had a blog. I wanted to be able to write whatever I wanted without having to worry about who was reading my blog. Eventually people found out, mostly through other people and so forth. I started monitoring what I wrote.

Part of monitoring what I write about is because some of the things that happen are hard for my family in Iceland to read. If I am hurting, it hurts me more to know that my Mamma is worried about me and hurting for me and she is so far away. I guess part of that comes from closing myself off from people too.

Because I have lived so far away from all of my family for so long now, I have kind of become more closed off. I felt I was doing that to protect us all. It hurts to live this far away from everyone you love.

Now it is time to come out and tell some of the story. I say some of the story because, all of the story is not your business (no offense).

I feel like a fake for the post that I wrote on my anniversary last week.

Dewayne and I are not happy!

We have been struggling to hold on to our marriage for a long time.

We separated twice in one year. Each time resulting in a 3 month separation. No one really knew about the second one. I only told my family about the first one because my Mamma saw that the TV was missing out of our living room when I was talking to her on the computer (he took the TV with him).

The second time we separated we went to a marriage counselor and she was great. She helped us learn a lot of ways to fight fairly (yes, fight fair!!!) and she also taught us how to speak to each other properly and learn to respect each other again. This marriage counselor was wonderful....too bad she lives in VA Beach and we now live in Illinois!!!

The thing is.....

Even with the marriage counselors help, we were struggling.

I love the man with all my heart but we think that it is best for us to separate.

I am going to move back to Iceland. I leave the states on April 20th and get to Iceland on April 21st.

This was a hard decision to make but I have all of my family there and I have a house and a car there. Here I have nothing and I don't know anyone here in Illinois. I have no job and we have one car between us that I can't afford to pay for by myself.

I have decided that I am going to start school in the fall and get my degree. Right now the plan is to go to Law school.

The boys are handling this good, they are excited at the idea of moving back home and living near family again. Kobe is going to have a really hard time because he is such a Daddy's boy. Dewayne will get Kobe every summer and I will have him during the winter.

We are trying to iron out the small details but the plane tickets have been bought and the decision has been made.

We are going our separate way!!!

Sad day

Last night Kobe was playing with some cans and I thought....it's innocent and not like he is going to be able to break them, it's cans!!!

I didn't think he would throw one of the cans on the top of my foot :o( It hurt so badly and now I have a nice little half moon bruise to show for it.

There is a lot going on here in our household, things that I am going to talk to you about tomorrow. Due to everything that is going on, we have to give up Maya. My beautiful, wonderful little princess!

These two are best friends and I know that this is going to be so hard for them both.

I can't help but cry every time I look at her sweet little face. I never wanted to get rid of her and now this is breaking my little heart.

I hope she is happy with her new family and gets to go on many long walks and gets to run around like a chicken without her head anytime she wants to (she likes to run crazy around the house).

Below is a video of Maya and Kobe that I took today. Kobe was playing hide and go seek in the couch cushions and Maya wanted to play along.

Pictures from the last week

Sorry I have been a lame blogger lately. I have a lot going on right now and I am having a hard time getting the umph to blog. I always try to be up beat and happy in my blogs and right now I am having a hard time doing that. I will tell you guys all the information as soon as I am able to share it. It is nothing life threatening and no one died, please don't worry about something like that.

I decided that I would make today's post picturiffic and show you some cute stuff :o)

The other day I was making hot pockets for the boys and I. The front of the hot pockets have cute little sayings on them and I thoughts the one on the left was too funny!!!

Maya loves to play outside and the other day she was outside and the weather was beautiful. I looked out the window to check on her and this is what I saw....Maya knocked out sleeping in the driveway.

Kobe had just woken up from a nap when I took these pictures a little while ago and I thought they were super cute.

His little cheeks were all red and he was so sleepy still.

Here is a project that I was working on last week. I made the hat, sweater and booties to match.

Aren't they the cutest thing ever? I wish I had a little girl to dress in this little outfit.

Instead I will just put it for sale at Art Fire and Etsy and hope some other little girls parents or loved ones buy it for her :o)

I am going to link up to A Silly Little Sparrow to Toot my Horn for the set that I made.

Getting to know you 3/21/2010

Getting to know YOU time!!! Keely over at Mann Land 5 came up with this great Sunday meme. She asks the questions and we answer them, can't get any easier than that :o) If you want to play along just click right here.

On to the questions....

1. What year did you graduate high school?

1999

2. What part of your body do you neglect the most?

In the winter time it is definitely my feet and legs. During the summer months my feet always look good and now they are crying out for some attention. In my defense, I did paint my toe nails last weekend!!!

3. Beach house or Lake house?

I am gonna go with Beach house!!! I love the smell of the ocean and I really miss living close to it. I have to say that I do not like sand though, my house would have to be sand-free!!!

4. Mac or PC?

I am a MAC girl all the way!!!

5. Did you wear braces?

Nope, didn't need them :o)

6. If you could be one person for a day..living or deceased..who would you be?

I have no clue!!! I can't think of anything clever to say about this one! Maybe Marilyn Monroe, maybe not? I dunno!

7. How many times have you moved in your life?

A LOT!!! I have moved so many times in my life that I can't count it. I am 29 years old and I move at least every 2 years or so. You do the math!!

8. Would you rather cook or clean?

Clean! I didn't know how to cook when I got married but I am learning now and getting better by the day :o) I can clean really good though :o)

5 Question Friday and Friday Follow

If you are coming over from Friday Follow....welcome. Please leave me a comment if you decide to follow me so I can come visit your blog and follow you back :o)

It's time for Five Question Friday. A blog hop created by Mama M over at My Little Life. If you want to play along just click on the button above or right here. Have fun!!!

1. Have you ever had a celeb sighting?

No, but I have met Michael Jordan's father-in-law. I love MJ and meeting his father-in-law was enough to make me giggle like a little school girl.

2. What temperature do you keep your house?

About 72 degrees. I do not like it any hotter than that.

3. Do you notice dust at other peoples homes?

No, I don't pay attention to things like that.

4. What's the worst job you ever had?

I was a hostess at a restaurant and only made $2.83 an hour and we were supposed to walk out with 10% of what the servers made. I never walked out with more than $15 for a 10-12 hour shift. I was ripped off in every way possible.

5. What is your most sentimental possession?

Probably my scrapbooking stuff. I love it and don't want to live without it :o)

Sick and tired

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!!! I have been sick for a week now and I swear it feels like it is getting worse and not better. I have had a horrible cold that has kept most of the house up for about...um a week! You see, I snore so much because I am so congested that no one else can sleep :o)

Today I have such a bad headache and my face hurts, I think I am getting a sinus infection...boo!!! Sorry I haven't been on today but I just don't feel up to it. Hope you are all doing well and I will see you all tomorrow :o)

Never a Wordless Wednesday

Last week Kobe and I went out for a walk. Before we left the house, I dressed him in wool socks, wool mittens, a wool sweater, wool hat and a snow suit. Just because it looks nice outside doesn't mean anything! We start our walk and about 4 houses down I start sweating, I thought it was just me and kept walking.

We walked all around the neighborhood and Kobe and I met some people who were playing with their dogs outside and Kobe got to throw a ball to one of the dogs a hundred or so times (the dog and Kobe loved each other and didn't want to stop playing).

Then we had to stop and take a picture of Kobe all dressed up in his winter clothes sitting in his stroller to put on the blog :o)

Then we saw the one thing we didn't see enough of in Virginia.....Squirrels!!!

This little squirrel was so cute and let us get pretty close to him and watch him eat. Kobe loved it and didn't want to leave the squirrel.

When we came home all sweaty from our walk I realized why we were so hot.....it was 65 degrees outside!!! No wonder we were HOT!!!!

My wonderful friend Pennie just got some bad news and I would love it if you could all go over to her blog and show her some love. She needs it today!

Toot Your Horn Tuesday 3/6/2010

I haven't played along to Toot Your Horn Tuesday in a long time and decided that today would be a good day to play :o) TYHT is a blog carnival created by Leah over at A Silly Little Sparrow. It is a great way for you to Toot your own horn about something that you have accomplished lately and want a pat on the back for...or in bloggy world, you want a nice comment about :o) If you want to play along just click here or on the button above.

Last week I made a two colored blue baby hat so I had to do matching booties. I made these last week when I went to the Knitting group.

Here is a picture of the Hat and Booties together.

I sold my pink and brown baby hat and bootie set last week at the Knitting group so I had to make another one. I have given some of these away and then sold one too. This is the most popular one so I have to have it in stock at all times :o)

Saturday night I made this pink and purple hat. I think this one is too cute!

The hats and booties seen in this blog post can be purchased by going to either Art Fire or Etsy.

3 years ago today...

When Dewayne and I got engaged we wanted to get married the next day. We were so excited about getting engaged and were so head over heels in love that we just wanted to get married NOW. Our families told us that we should wait a little while so we decided to get married in May 2008.

We got engaged on December 21, 2006 and Dewayne was set to deploy to Afghanistan around January 15, 07. We were really excited and so in love and then on January 7, 2007 I found out I was pregnant! We were excited and scared but decided that we were still going to wait to get married until May 2008.

Dewayne left for training on January 21, 07 and I was miserable. I cried my eyes out and felt like I had just lost him forever. I was not supposed to see Dewayne again until he came home on leave and then he was supposed to come home from Afghanistan in the end of April of 2008. In the end of February, Dewayne's Great Grandmother passed away and Dewayne was given emergency leave from training to go to her funeral. I drove to North Carolina to get him and together the two of us (and Kobe in the belly) drove to Chicago for the funeral.

We spent those 5 days together and we fought almost the whole time. I was really scared that meant that things were going down hill for us. Dewayne left for training again and I spent the next few days crying. Then I started to get cramps and contractions and the Doctor put me on 50% bed rest and I had to cut down my hours at work to 4 hours a day. When that happened I lost my health insurance at work. Now I got really scared and wasn't sure how I was going to do this with the baby and support two other sons in the mean time.

Dewayne talked to his supervisors and was given leave for 4 days to come home. We decided to get married before he left for Afghanistan instead of wait till he came home. It meant that I would have insurance for me and the baby and the boys would have insurance too. It also was better because if something would have happened to Dewayne in Afghanistan, the boys and I would have been taken care of.

The boys and I drove to North Carolina on March 13th to picked up Dewayne. We stayed on base for one night and then we took our sweet time driving the next day. We decided to stay in a hotel again that night and then on March 15th we drove the rest of the way home. We got home and I dressed in the only pair of jeans that fit me anymore and a pink shirt. Dewayne wore his uniform and off to the court house we went.

We were married by the Justice of the Peace on March 15, 2007. I do not have any pictures from that day because we didn't know we were allowed to bring our camera into the court house and we had two giggling little boys that would have made great photographers. It was really cute because Tyrique and Markus could not stop giggling the whole time we were getting married and when we kissed they both said EEWW and then laughed as hard as they could.

It was a great day and we ordered Chinese food for dinner. Dewayne left for training camp again on that Sunday and I was able to see him one more time before he left for Afghanistan,

Dewayne only ended up staying in Afghanistan until July of 2007 because my pregnancy had so many complications and the hospital called his command and told them to send him home. We didn't know until the day before he left that he was coming home for good.

These pictures were taken the day I dropped Dewayne off at Training camp. They are the only pictures I have from that weekend.

These last 3 years have been wonderful. Yes, we have had our ups and downs but we have pulled through it all and we are still head over heels in love....most days :o)

Thank you for these wonderful 3 years together.

I am so excited to see where we will be in the next 50 years :o)

I love you with all my heart!!!

Getting to know You 3/14/2010

Can you believe that I am sick as a dog right now!!! I have a horrible cold, sore throat and head congestion. I could not sleep last night because I felt like I couldn't breath and then this morning I took some Tylenol because my head hurt so bad and was able to fall asleep and stay sleeping until almost 2 o'clock :-0 I feel a little bit better now that I got some sleep but man o man I feel like booty!!! This is the second time since I moved here that I get sick!?!?!? I don't get sick!!!

Ugh, let's move on to some better and more exciting things...like Getting to Know YOU!!! Keely over at Mann Land 5 came up with this fabulous blog hop that I enjoy so much. If you want to play along all you have to do is click right here and you will be magically directed to Keely's blog :o)

Here are this weeks questions.

1. What's your favorite Easter candy?

The Snickers eggs. Yumm!!!

2. Who do you think is cleaner..men or women?

I think it depends on who the person is, in my house hold it is Dewayne. He has OCD and has to have the house clean at all times. Me, not so much! I like a clean home but I like a lived in home too :o)

3. Which do you prefer..wordy blog posts or ones with pictures?

I like picture blogs the best but I read them all :o)

4. Were you popular in highschool?

Yeah, I was pretty popular. Not one of those Mean Girls (the movie) popular but one of those girls that everyone knew and I got along with pretty much everyone.

5. What's your bra size?

I have always been in the Itty Bitty Titty Committee, now only a member but I was the President LOL. Ever since I had Kobe I have been able to maintain a decent size though. I am a 36C-D depending on the bra.

6. How many states have you lived in?

Wyoming, Pennsylvania, Virginia and Illinois.

7. What's one blog you read every day?

I read a lot of blogs on a daily basis. I can't say I just read one.

8. Peanut butter or Nutella?

Neither one. Eeww!!! I do not like peanut butter, I hate the taste and smell of it. Nutella is gross, who wants chocolate on their bread???

Out of the mouths of Babes

Just a little bit ago I was laying in bed with Kobe and he points to my discarded clothes and bra sitting on top of my hamper and asks...what's that???

I told him...that's my clothes.

He tells me...No, it's your Bloobs (boobs)!

He saw the bra there and was telling me that the bra was my boobs :o) LOL

He is too young to know about boobs, he has asked me numerous times though what my boobs are. Hahahaha

Why

Why is it that every time I put Kobe down for a nap and Tyrique and Markus are home, they wake him up?? Why do they always choose those times to have to go get something to eat, want to get into a fight or decide to slam doors and have an attitude???

Since I took Kobe's pacifier away, I have been having a really hard time getting him to take his naps. He used to nap for 3-4 hours a day!!! Now I am lucky if he takes a nap!!! I need that nap time to get stuff done. Today I put him in his crib and he cried for a little while and then finally fell asleep. It didn't take the boys 5 minutes to wake him back up!!!

Sorry, I just really wanted some me time today and I guess that's not gonna happen!!!

What do you have planned?

Friday Follow and Five Question Friday

I used to count down the days till Friday came...you know, back when I was working! Now that Dewayne and I are both home all day, every day, Friday is just another day! My boys love Friday's though, so for them I am excited :o) Also there are two great blog hops on Friday's that I participate in, the first one is Friday Follow.

Friday Follow is sponsored by

Friday Follow is a great way to find new and exciting blogs and also it is a great way for people to find your blog. As of right now there are 600+ people participating in this blog hop, that's a lot of new blogs to read :o)

The fabulous ladies over at One 2 Try, Hearts Make Families and Midday Escapades come up with this awesome blog hop.

There is also another blog hop I just found called Follow me Friday. Click on the button above to join in the fun.

Hello everyone coming over from Friday Follow and Follow me Friday!! If you are a new Follower please leave me a comment so I can come check out your blog and follow you back :o)

The next blog hop the I love to participate in on Friday's is Five Question Friday. 5QF is created by the wonderful Mama M over at My Little Life. Click here or on the button above to visit her site and play along.

1. How much time do you spend on the computer a day?

Waaaay too much time!!!! I have never timed it and I never want to. I am not ready to admit that I have a problem, I am not addicted to this computer!!!

2. Will you pay for your children's college or raise them to pay for their own way?

I will not pay for their college. I was not raised with a lot of money and I would not have gotten my college paid for me. I was not one of those kids who had a car at 16 and all the coolest clothes. I was the kid who was responsible with my allowance (that I worked my butt off for) and used it on the things that really mattered to me. I moved out of my parents house at 18 and have never looked back.

I want my sons to be responsible and appreciate what they have in life. I believe that if you give your children everything they want and pay for everything, the kids will not appreciate it and will not take care of it. I don't want my sons to grow up and never leave my house. I don't want them to have a nice car, decent job but nothing else to show for it.

There were so many guys when I was growing up that had decent jobs, lived with Mom and Dad, had a NICE car....but were always broke and relying on Mom and Dad for everything. I don't want that to be my sons.

My boys know that when they turn 18 and graduate from High school they have to either get a job and move out or they can live with me if they go to college and have good grades. I am not paying for their college, I would help out if they are doing really well in school and they needed a little bit of help but I am not paying for it all! I think people that get things handed to them don´t appreciate things like someone who has to work for what they get.

3. Have you ever been in a car accident?

Never anything serious, thank God!!!

4. What is your favorite book?

Suzanne's diary to Nicholas by James Patterson. If you have not read this book....you need to!!!! It is so good. The most beautiful love story ever!!!

5. Do you make your bed everyday?

I try to yes!! I didn't used to back in the day, now I love to come into my room and the bed is pretty and made up.

That was fun :o) Again just click on the buttons above to play along with either blog hop.

Welcome Friday Followers :o) I look forward to getting to know you!!