To do or not to do???

That is the million dollar question!!! So I have been out looking for jobs since I came home from Iceland and it seems to be looking up for me. I have gone on a few job interviews and I walked away from them knowing I was not going to get the jobs. But now I have one company that is looking rather promising and it is a supervisor position with great hours.

So now that I think I may have found a job I have to find daycare for Kobe. So I started calling around yesterday to CDH (Child Development Home) providers who work with the military and no one in this area has any openings for Kobe. So the closest one that has an opening is about a 20 to 30 minute drive from here and there is no way I am putting him in care that far from home. Last night I posted a listing on craigslist looking for providers in this area and I had some interesting responses. I was very clear on what I wanted in the ad and I have people e-mailing me who live in Norfolk which is waaaaayyyy out of the way for us and others who have part time hours but want full time pay for it.

I spoke to a woman today who responded to my ad and she sent me a link to her daycare web site and on it is says that she works from 7:30 am to 3:30 pm. She told me that she is willing to work until 5 pm if needed though. Ok here is the catch....she considers 8:30 am to 1 pm full time and charges extra for the kids to stay any later than that???? What the f*ck??? She also said that the kids only get to take an hour nap in the afternoon because she has to pick up her children from school and she has to have the kids awake to do that. Ok I can understand that you have children of your own but come on an hour nap a day??? Kobe would go insane if he took only an hour nap everyday. She said that parents appreciate it because their children go down so easily at night...uuuhhh yeah that is because they are exhausted. Children need those naps so they can function and also for their brains to develop!!!

Now she also told me that she is closed anytime that the school is closed. That includes being off for Christmas break and I have to pay for all her holidays!!! If we take any vacation then we still have to pay her!! She gets paid 52 weeks a year regardless of the situation!! Give me a freaking break. She has it better than I ever did as a daycare provider.

So now I am wondering if I should just stay home and become a daycare provider again or do I want to put my child in daycare and pay out the ass for someone to watch him for me and I have to take vacation every time the school is off???? I am kind of frustrated after the last 24 hours trying to find someone to watch Kobe. One lady was shady as hell telling me that if the state came to audit her then I had to say that Kobe was a drop off for the day!! Uh that means that she has WAY tooooo many children and needs to be reported for that!!! Kobe is not going near her!!!

Ok so off I go to make dinner and keep looking for a provider for him. Do I start doing daycare again or do I go out there to work and pay someone else twice as much as I used to charge???