Friday, May 28, 2010

Outside my window

Sorry I have been MIA for the last week.  I went to my Mamma's house Friday last week and stayed until Monday.  My little sister was confirmed on Sunday and my sons were Christened at the church with her.  It was a wonderful day and everything was beautiful.  My bestest friend took pictures (the one who took the picture on the header on my blog) and as soon as she has edited them I will post some pics on here.  

I have had a hard week.  This is starting to hit me more now.  It is becoming more real!  

I want to write on here but I don't know how much to say and I don't know if I should say anything at all about what I am feeling.  I have cried a lot this week and I want to crawl into bed and stay there.  I make myself get up and out of bed and I try to get out of the house and be around people as much as I can.  I am not depressed...reality has just hit me and it hurts.  It's not really the fact that I am getting a divorce that is the hardest is the fact that the person that I trusted with my life is now screwing me over.  I never expected the things that have been said and done to happen between Dewayne and I but I guess I was really wrong!!! 

I will try to update my blog more often, I love you girls so much and miss you like crazy. 

Now on to something more fun...

Abby over at Murdock's Mama is the writer of one of my many must read blogs.  I love to read about her adventures as a Nanny and the mother of one adorable, furry, four legged baby named Murdock.  She has this great question/answer things that she does on Thursdays and this week she has decided to do a MckLinky.  I have participated a few times and wanted to show some love today being that today is the first day Abby has a MckLinky :o)  Why don't you go over to Abby's blog and do the same!!

Outside my window.. the street is quiet.
The time is.. 12:15 am
Today I feel.. all over the place.  I have cried, yelled, laughed and cried, yelled and laughed all over again.
I am thinking.. that I just want to crawl into bed and stay there for a week...too bad I can't fall asleep!!
At the moment, I am thankful.. that I have 3 beautiful, healthy sons.
I am going.. to help my sister pack up her house this weekend (as if I have not done enough packing and unpacking lately....the way I see it is, I am now a PRO).
I am wearing.. black yoga pants and a black v-neck shirt.
I wish.. I can't think of anything off the top of my head to put on here.
I am reading.. Chicken soup for the scrapbookers soul.  I also just got 4 books from my lil sister this past weekend that I want to start reading.
I am working on.. getting my kitchen all put away after the remodel of the kitchen will be coming along soon.
I am hoping.. that I will start working next week.
I am hearing.. the clock in the kitchen ticking.
Around the house.. it is finally clean!!  My house has been so hectic for the last few weeks because of the kitchen remodel and today I was able to finish cleaning everything and I just have a few more things to do in the kitchen (that will be done tomorrow).
I bet you didn't know.. that I am falling in love with this color and want everything around me to be in this beautiful, happy color :O)
One of my favorite.. drinks is an Icelandic orange soda called Appelsin.  I love it and am quite hooked since I came home....I really need to stop drinking it!!


Dagbok Huldar said...

Er ad hugsa til thin. Skrifadi inn hja mer, sma fjall sem eg er sjalf ad klifra yfir. :D

Maura said...

So glad to see you back. You were missed! I find its nice to take a bit of a blogging break every now and then. Sometimes there is just too much to say that you don't know were to start or if you should start all. This happens to me a lot.

I'm sorry you had a tough week. I am glad you have your family close by to help out. I can wait to see pictures of the new kitchen! And of the boys, your header pic is awesome so I'm sure these will be too!

Stacey said...

Cry and get it all out, girl! I promise it will get better!

Pennie said...

Sorry you're having a tough too. I'm taking a break, too. Isn't it weird how alike we are?

I love that color blue! I want to EVENTUALLY do my bedroom in that color blue and brown. LOVE those colors together. Very lovely. Light brown, too.

Well, Helga, I wish you lived here. I've thought that many times...

3LittleMonkeys said...

Sorry to hear you are going through a hard time. I hope it gets better soon. Get some rest!

Love that blog hop, I think I'll have to participate one time.