The Results

     I went to the Drs and she said that she does not think it is breast cancer.  She wants to send me to have an ultrasound just to be on the safe side though.  The Dr told me that she thinks I have Fibrocystic Disease of the Breast.  What that means is basically I have soft to firm movable lumps in my breasts and they can cause the breasts to be tender or painful.  So if it is that and not breast cancer then I am one happy camper.  I am still very scared though and can't seem to shake that feeling, I know I will be just fine though and soon I will have that ultrasound and then I will be just fine.  

     I also took Tyrique to the Drs today, he saw a Dermatologist for his skin.  The Dr said that he does not have a fungus and he is not contagious.  He has really bad Ezcema (just like I thought).  So Tyrique can go back to playing football and doing what he wants to do and he is soooooo excited.  Their first scrimage game is on Friday and then there is another one on Saturday and he does not want to miss those.

     Ok well enough for now.  I want to go eat something and relax....I haven't been able to eat anything today because my stomach was a mess but now I am HUNGRY. 

Here goes

Well it is 6:45 and I am walking out the door to go to the Drs appointment.  I cried so much last night and I had a really hard time sleeping but the moment of truth has come.  I am on my way and I will let you know how it goes when I get back.  Wish me luck :0/

Worrying

This weekend I found a lump in my left breast and I am really worried.  I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning at 7 and I have been trying to stay positive about this but damnit it's so hard.  The what if's keep popping into my head and sometimes I feel like crying but I keep telling myself I need to stay positive.  Last night I could not sleep because I had such weird dreams, the only one I really remember was dreaming that Kobe was standing holding onto a table and he was choking on some food and his face was blue and no one was able to help him.  I woke up from that dream and ran into his room to check on him and he was sleeping so peacefully.  I went back to bed and tried my all not to cry because the dream seemed so real.  I just held onto Dewayne for dear life and tried to go back to sleep.  When I finally fell back to sleep Dewayne turned over and woke me back up and it took me forever to fall back to sleep.  This morning I am so tired and so stressed out that I snapped at Dewayne when he was here during lunch and I snapped at Tyrique this morning because of his hair.  I can't wait till after the doctors appointment tomorrow so I can feel better.  Ok well I am going to lay on the couch and try to relax while the kids are sleeping.  I will let you know how the appointment goes tomorrow morning.

My Husband is Great

    Dewayne was in the local paper this week for being freaking awsome :0)  They did an article on him basically talking about football and then some about the Navy.  The story was a whole page and it was so great.  

    Dewaynes team right now is undefeated or 8-0.  The game they played last night was against the DC Chiefs and they whopped their butts, the score was 56-0!!!!  Dewayne played quite a bit last night and he did great.  

    Tyrique was holding the markers at the game and Markus was helping me with Kobe and taking pictures.  Tyrique loooovvveeesss football and wants to do everything with Dewayne when he is playing.  This is good for them cause it gives them a chance to bond.  Markus wants to be a part of it too but he is intimidated by all the guys so he would rather sit with me in the stands.  Kobe likes to clap his hands and call out to Daddy.  He also likes to eat and drink his bottle :0)

    Now there are only three more games left in the regular season and then playoffs start.  The three games remaining are from teams that they have already beat and the one team forfitted the game.  The team that forfitted the game have not won any games so they are no worry.  I am so proud of my baby for how good he has done this season, I know how exhausting it is to have to go 6 days a week to practice and play football.  Poor Dewayne has no life right now besides football and work.  

    In regards to the rest of us.....we are all doing good.  Kobe is going to see the ENT next month to get tubes in his ears, since my last blog he has had another ear infection.  Markus is going to start playing soccer soon (he is soooo excited).  Tyrique has a rash or eczema all over his body and he has been seeing the doctor for it and when he went to get his sports physical the doctor would not clear him saying she thought it was a fungus???  WTF, Tyrique has had this thing all over his body for a year and the other doctors never mentioned fungus.  The sports doc said that if it is fungus then it is contagious.....now if it is contagious don't you think the rest of us wouldn't have it by now too???  I don't know what to think...the boys are going to have school physicals on Tuesday so we will see what the doc says then.  

    Ok this is enough for now.....I am so tired today that I need to get Kobe and Kaden to sleep and then I am going to relax on the couch until Army Wives starts.  Have a great week everyone and I will blog again one of these days.

Friday

Wow I have not blogged in a REALLY long time.  I have been really lazy with it and I apologize to all my readers (lol I say that like there are thousands reading this). 

 So the boys are home finally and I could not be happier.  Tyrique started football on Monday and they practice every day from 6 pm till 8 or 8:30 pm.  Tyrique is so happy to be playing football, he is loving going to practice everyday and when I ask him if he is tired he says "No Mamma I wanted to stay longer!"  I think 2 or 2.5 hours is a really long time to be out there in the heat practicing.  His games start in September sometime after school has started.  Markus on the other hand is not playing any sport yet because he does not want to play anything other than baseball or basketball and those seasons have not started.  Well baseball season just ended so he missed out on that one so he is going to have to wait until basketball starts.  

Kobe is a whole nother story.....my perfect baby who has always gone to sleep so easily is now a horror to put to sleep.  Since Kobe was born I have been putting him wide awake into his bed and he goes to sleep on his own, never a problem.  Well now he starts to cry as soon as I walk into his room.  I don't know what happened in the last week but he does not want to go to sleep in there at all.  I am so damn stubborn though that I am not going to let him sleep in my bed or get used to being put to sleep.  I have been letting him cry for about 10-15 min and then I go and check on him and kiss him and put him back down to sleep and this goes on for hours.  Last night I put him in his bed at 8 and he was awake until after 12 am.  He then woke up before 6 am and would not go back to sleep.  When I put him down for his morning nap he went down just fine but he did not have an afternoon nap today.....he just cried until I gave up at about 2 pm.  Hopefully tonight he will go to sleep really good.

As far as my diet and working out goes......it's not going!!!  I have been really lazy lately and I am so mad at myself for it.  I am doing good the last two days though and tonight after Dewayne gets home from work I am going to go ride my bike for awhile.  I am determined to loose more weight.  I have lost 7 lbs. so far and I want to loose another 13 lbs. by Labor day (Sept 1st).  I will keep you all informed.  Ok well enough for now.  Have a great weekend everyone.